So I’ve been taking Zoloft off and on for the past five years (mostly on, except for the final stages of pregnancy and early post-partum periods). I tapered off close to a year ago, when I was pregnant with Brynja, and I felt good enough for a while that I didn’t think I needed to start up again.<\/p>\n
The past few months, though, I’m just not in a good place. My anxiety, irritability, mood swings, depression, self-loathing, etc. are all steadily increasing and lately I can hardly stand to be in the same room with myself. Everything just feels so heavy<\/em> all the time.<\/p>\n This morning I made an appointment to see the doctor next week to talk about getting back on the meds, but I’m feeling sort of ambivalent about it. I don’t really understand my resistance, because I have nothing but good experience with Zoloft, and if a friend were in my situation I would advise her to get to the doctor without delay, but I just can’t help feeling a little like a lesser person for needing medicine. I don’t feel that way AT ALL about anyone else who’s taking meds, just myself … it’s just, I don’t know, I think I should be able to cope, you know? Just to buck up and all that. I mean, my life is *awesome* … why can’t I just settle in and enjoy it? Why do I have to be such a [insert negative description here] all the time?<\/p>\n I do know, actually, that all of these negative feelings are part of the depression and I know, too, that the anti-depressants will help them go away, but I feel them–and feel them strongly–all the same, and it sucks. Yeah, poor, poor me. \t\t\t\t\t So I’ve been taking Zoloft off and on for the past five years (mostly on, except for the final stages of pregnancy and early post-partum periods). I tapered off close to a year ago, when I was pregnant with Brynja, and I felt good enough for a while that I didn’t think I needed to… Read More That time again<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1085","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.beverlyrevelry.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1085","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.beverlyrevelry.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.beverlyrevelry.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.beverlyrevelry.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.beverlyrevelry.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=1085"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.beverlyrevelry.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1085\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.beverlyrevelry.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=1085"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.beverlyrevelry.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=1085"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.beverlyrevelry.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=1085"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}
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